You Can't Explain a Love like Ours

Hey there everyone! How are you all doing?

While I was done writing the last part of my previous post, I instantly had some inspiration to write another post, but, as fast as it came, that's how it also vanished. I clicked "New Post", and *poof!*, I forgot everything I was supposed to say, or I was too distracted with the other tabs or other things to do. And also, blame the bad, gloomy weather for it.

But then, I found this article in Yahoo about a couple who have been married for 72 years and they died together holding hands. :"> Isn't it touching? It's entitled "72 years together: The couple who died holding hands", and you might want to read about it. Then this inspired me to blog about it, about everlasting love, wondering, "Does this still exist?", and that this could indeed become an inspiration to everyone especially those who are hopeful in love, or optimistic about it. Then I would also talk about what I thought about love. :)

That story is indeed like a real life fairytale, or just like what romantic books talk about. I once believed in all of those when I was a kid, like I would be recalling those stories through the dolls I play and imitate those love scenes they have through those toys, but then I was told of the reality of "love", like it wouldn't really always end as a "happily ever after", and that when you'll engage in a relationship, there's always a big possibility that you'll break up, even though you thought for sure that you wouldn't, because you were so blinded from the start. 

I don't know why our society now is like this. Relationships don't last that long anymore, and maybe that's the reason why couples celebrate monthsaries instead because they don't think they would last a year, am I right? It isn't like the old times when couples fall in love with each other, they know for sure that they're the ones for each other already, turned out to be true after all, then they marry and celebrate decades of anniversaries, and never did I hear about divorces back then. Sure, I may not be alive that time, but I know those things because I do read a lot about the history sometimes. :P

Anyway, these things also explained why I lost hope in love a lot of times, since I've opened my eyes to all the bad possibilities of it. LOL. As the matter of fact, I don't hear much about wonderful things about it though. The only few good things I hear about it would be when you both share the same feelings for each other (then that never happened to me back then), and you will find inspiration from the love you have (yeah, I experienced this one time), then just one look at that person (or one "Hello" from him/her) would make your day.

But you know, after reading that article, I thought that anything's possible with love, just as long as you believe in it, like what I'm trying to do know. xD I do hope I could find true love myself though. To tell you, I'm having this situation right now wherein a guy likes me (then I like him too) and that he seemed so sincere with his feelings for me. I, being always hesitant when it comes to believing things like these, don't really believe in it just yet, or I don't know, I want him to look me in the eyes and say it sincerely. >:P nyahaha. While he's doing so, I don't know what my feelings would do to me. (^o^)

Naah, forget that part, the main topic of this post would be that LOVE would indeed work wonders if you do some effort with it and that if you believe that long lasting togetherness would happen. Oh, look who's talkin', I don't even have a love life. Why am I even giving this advice. HAHA

I would surely love to hear love stories like this again, and I hope our story with my soon-to-be special someone, whoever he may be (LOL, that's creepy), would be one of those. :))

Till here :*

Oh school. Tomorrow, here I come ^^ 

Day 10: One Picture of Yourself

Oh yes! :D The last day of the challenge! So, here's one picture of myself:

Till here for this post :* I'll write another post for this day later.

Talkin' about Missing You and Love

Hello there everyone! How are you all doing? Me, I'm doing fine. To those who have been visiting my blog since the last few months, this is a familiar intro, right? Yes, I miss writing that kind of introduction to my beloved readers, and I also miss those readers that I usually say those things too. But, knowing that they may not remember me anymore, .. or I don't know, maybe they still do remember me, all I wanted to tell them is that I really miss them, and I don't know why, but I get shy when I push myself to tell them that on their tagboard, since, as what I've stated, they may not remember me anymore because it's been so long since I've updated this blog or became updated with their blog as well.

I miss those times when I used to drop by and comment on their blog, or others' blogs for that matter, then they, in return, would also comment back on mine, and I, and also them, would reach as much as 15 to 50 comments on their posts. I also miss the times when we all express concern or happiness with each other, like we all could relate. I remember when I used to think as well as I could for what "comment" I should give to a certain post of a certain blogger, so that at least I, or they, could think that I don't take commenting for granted. I also remember when I used to drop by lots of blogs so that I could find inspiration in what I should write, because knowing that this "Blogosphere" is a place where everyone shares things that inspire others, I use those in a way that it could benefit me too.

I also learned that people always have their say on whatever things I post, whether they're good or bad, and I (or they should, too) respect that. We are all different in every way, so might as well understand them, although it's kinda hard at times (even in real life, it is).

So, enough said. I miss everything and everyone here in the blogging world that I left for over a month. I also miss visiting other blogs too, which I failed to do for, well, almost 4 months, since I've been very busy and focused in school because I'm already a senior high school student and it's expected that I could be that occupied, right?

Besides blogging, since I've been on a semestral break from school for 10 days (tomorrow's the 10th day), I began missing it too. I remember when I always panic studying at the last minute during quizzes, or keeping my eyes on the books in studying for the exam, or having my work copied by my seatmates without me knowing (but this isn't the case now since our seating arrangement is already "one seat apart"), or asking, well, most of the time being asked for help by my classmates during seatworks. I also remember when I'd get into a bad mood when I don't get the highest score in one of our tests, or when my classmates were asking too much help from me that would cause me to delay my work that got me thinking that it's pretty hard to be one of the smartest students in class, but that didn't change my wish to top my whole batch, or at least, be one of the top honor students, because I know that my wisdom and knowledge, or "smarts" when we talk about school, are my precious gifts from God and that I should be glad that I have them, knowing that a lot of people don't have that, and I'm very fortunate to have been blessed with it.

School really does have a lot of thrills that I miss, just like catching up a glance with someone I admire, or getting close to him (FACT: his seat is at the back of mine this time) and have hours of talk time (LOL, talk time? HAHA .. I remember cellphone specifications for this), and when it comes to teachers, I miss the jokes they crack, or how they make learning interesting and thrilling as well.

Besides the experiences and people in school, I also miss the clean and green surroundings that our school has, and we never fail to smell fresh air. I also found my favorite place in school too, which is the outside of our classroom wherein it's located at the highest floor of our building, because we never fail to catch the breeze there. Another favorite hangout in our school would be the benches, since it's windy there at times too then we could sit with anyone there. LOL. I pretty much like everything that's in school, except the bad odor our CR usually gets and the vandals that could be found there, but that's normal in every school, right? So, yeah, minus the ones that have been on strikethrough, our school is a beautiful place to be in, just like in our home.

Well, I guess that would be it for the topic, "Missing You". Next stop: LOVE.

I'll be talking about all the love that I know.

Okay, I'll start.

I have this love for photography recently, and that explains why I posted a lot of pictures these past few days. Here are some other pictures I could share:

What do you think of the shots? Am I getting better? xD

Then I also have a bit of love for K-POP. LOL. Here are music videos that got me starstruck with awe:

Mr. Simple by Super Junior

- I guess all K-POP fans right there know this song. hahah! I (almost literally) can't take my eyes off this music video. xD I first discovered it on Channel V, and I'm glad I turned on the TV that time. :P

Step by KARA

- I love the way they dance and dress up, and they look so cute! hahah! :)) .. and pretty too!

I may love K-POP, but honestly, I have no idea what the group members' names are. LOL. I just love how they dance, sing, and how they make their music videos because they're flashy and colorful, since that's what I also love about art. ;)

Another kind of love that I'll be talking about would be the ones everyone, especially the teens, talk about these days, and you, of course, know about that. I thought the word "love" has been overused and overrated already by teenagers nowadays, and I still think about it that way about it now too, although it kinda makes even more sense to me already now that I'm more mature, and not to mention, I can relate to it already (ssshh. LOL). But I know time will come that these would all make sense to me already and that I won't think that it's overused and overrated already. For now, I think that these things about love are still what teenagers perceive, and not its real meaning yet. Also, for now, I'll have to focus on familial love because it's the true love that I know right now, along with the love of God. :))

I don't know why, but I lost interest in talking about my so-called feelings for someone, since I've been planning to include that here because I should give that a try once more and not mind bad things that others might think of it. Oh well.

Off topic. Tomorrow is Eid'l Adha', a regular holiday. That would mean that there would be no classes! \m/ It's going to be another long weekend, and I'm happy with it, although there's this part of me that got disappointed since I still have to wait another 24 hours to see everything and everyone in school again, but I'm still happy because I could still prepare some more for the upcoming resume of classes, and that I'd refresh myself for it.

Well, that's it for now. Till here :*

Day 9: Two Songs

1. Science and Faith by The Script - My favorite lines for this song would be, "You won't find faith or hope down a telescope, you won't find heart and soul in the stars, you can break everything down to chemicals, but you can't explain a love like ours ..~", and yes, that's the chorus. I liked all the lyrics of the songs actually, because it involves familiar things I've learned in Science, which is of course fascinating to me .. well .. sometimes. xD
2. Wish You Were Here by Avril Lavigne - I could really relate to this song, since I miss everything and everyone in school already, and finally I get to see them on Tuesday. So, yeah, I'm excited. ;)

Till here :* I may write another post today. :P

Bothered

I don't know why, but I enjoy writing multiple posts in a day now. HAHA. I just can't help it. I really do have a lot of thoughts to share that's wanting to come out, and I guess they're nothing serious really. Serious ones and those that are private are stored here, and they're not worth sharing anyway, so, yeah.

Who am I kidding? Maybe this could be serious after all.

Refer to the last part of the post for you to understand more everything that I've written here. LOL

So, here it goes ...

I'm bothered because I'm not really sure how and what thoughts I should express already, knowing that everyone who knows this blog or accidentally finds it would read all about it, and maybe criticize it, like, they'd tell me that "these things are not meant to be shared .." or, "oh look, how could she even dare to show all these?", then, "please delete this and that, what if (name of person) sees it". Being a girl who thought that we could literally share anything on a blog in the first place, referring to some other blogs that state on their blog that, "this is my blog and I have the right to post anything" or "I blog to express, not to impress", I did have an idea on what indeed I should write, which, as how I understood, "anything" that goes in my mind. So I expressed just that, and you know what? It didn't really go too well at some points. Although I gotta admit that it, most of the time, gave me some good experiences too.

Why didn't it go too well? I gained an enemy because of one post, and it took almost 4 months for us to get back to being friends again. Then, another one would be, I wrote something bad about someone, then I was saved from trouble when my parents told me to delete that part. I was frustrated at first but then realized that they were right for telling me to do so. I also wrote something about my feelings of liking for a certain someone, then I was also told to delete that. I was pretty sure that I didn't go far in expressing that though. The last one explained why this blog does not contain cheesy posts anymore.

That last situation (or whatever you call it. I ran out of right words to think of and say), about it being the reason why this blog doesn't contain any things about my love life (LOL, I don't even have a love life, honestly), my liking for someone, and many more that's really cheesy to express, did get me wondering, 

"How could they prohibit me from telling about one of the greatest highlights of being a teenager, which is falling in love (or developing feelings for someone of the opposite sex would be more appropriate when we talk about me)? Why couldn't they just understand that it's perfectly normal for teens to feel that way and that they shouldn't be mad at them for undergoing such? Why couldn't they trust me on this, where in fact I already proved to them that I was still able to concentrate on my studies while I was secretly admiring someone, and another fact, I even reached a higher rank in the honors' list, because of the inspiration I've got, although I'm not so sure if I really did get it from that."

I demand an explanation for this. For those who are already thinking that I sound stupid already, then go ahead and judge me some more. I'm just here to express my thoughts and opinions about expressing freely when blogging, and if you must have a valid reason that some parts of this post should be deleted, then tell me. I respect others' opinions too, if I also find them reasonable and valid.

And you know, this was the same case too for Facebook, and that also explains why I don't post cheesy stuff there anymore, and if I must, I just post a song that could explain what I'm feeling (although that's not always the case that a song could be one that I can relate it, unless stated).

Well, I know that those people who told me to delete my cheesy posts (both on Blogger and Facebook) have their reasons for their actions and decisions too, so maybe I should just try to understand them and discover what they might have thought about my actions as well.

For those things that have happened when I expressed stuff other than the one about love, I understand fully why they're bad, then about expressing freely, I guess I just didn't fully understand what they meant in the first place, so here I am now, edging to think very carefully what I should write (or type :P). But this did limit me to express freely, and isn't that what blogging is all about?

I'm coming to the enlightenment that this blog does show a lot about who or what the author is like, and that the author has the responsibility to preserve his/her good name and respected identity, and maybe that's kind of the reason why posting stuff about love could be a bit of a bad thing if done too much since others wouldn't respect the author anymore just as much because they might think that he/she is full of crappy thoughts about love and is too full of it to think of other things, isn't that right? But, just like I said, I don't usually go too far in expressing those here in my blog, but then again, on Facebook, I gotta admit, I posted too much about love, and I ended up harmlessly teased by my friends. Since I saw it as a joke, it didn't really hurt me, but then I realized that I didn't want to be teased like that anymore, so I've sworn to myself that I won't post about love anymore ... just love songs. LOL. Well, I still post things about love, but recently, I'm edging to find inspirational things to post instead of that, which would be kind of better.


Going back to being confused about what thoughts I should express already, I'm thinking of posting pretty much about my daily activities, but would you get interested in it anyway? And also, I can't go on posting music and art all the time, or can I? I guess I should post things that define me more about who I am, then this would gain back my blog's personal purpose, right? But this seems hard now since mostly all I think about now, when I'm currently not in school, is all about what comes around and goes around in this thing called love. But don't get me wrong, I don't think all about it all the time, or do I?


So, yeah, I don't know for sure what I should express instead here anymore just yet. But I will someday figure that out.

In spite of all of these things, I learned to be more and more responsible in blogging. With the fact that I've been blogging for 3 years already, since June 11, 2009, I know that I've grown more and more mature, especially mentally and emotionally when we talk about myself online. I also learned to handle my feelings better, and to express my thoughts clearer, then I also understood myself even better too. Thanks to the right to freedom of expression, and also to the people who have helped me develop from within, I have become the person I am now, and am able to write posts this way now too.

I'm sorry that this post is kinda unruly, unorganized, and all, but since I'm already feeling sleepy while writing this, I hope you understand. I also hope you got the point of this post. (Who am I kidding? Would anyone really get the point?)

So, to explain the point instead, for you to understand it (or understand it better if you already understood), I'll just summarize all these things:

• I understood the right to freedom of expression in a different way in the first place when it came to blogging, that was way back when I was new here.
• Since I understand it well now, due to learning it the hard way, this got me bothered because it got me more cautious on what to write, even about one of the things that interest me which is love.
• I questioned this because isn't it that we should be able to express freely on a blog? and besides, I DID NOT go too far in expressing my love feelings in the first place here in my blog .. at least, as far as I've remembered.
• While writing this post, I came to the enlightenment that those people who ask me to delete some parts of the blog or tell me what I should or shouldn't express here have their reasons of their actions and decisions too, and who knows? They may also be right, right?
• Deciding on what kind of thoughts to express seemed hard already, but I'll figure that out soon, due to the enlightenment that I had.
• After all, these experiences, and the people I was referring to which I did not clearly state, or state at all, helped me become a better person and the person I am now, and also the posts I write now too.
• But still, to tell you the truth, I'm still bothered with all these. So I'd appreciate it if you could say something about these too. :))

Till here :* I hope you could have your say on this.

Random things you might want to know about me

I found these questions on Tumblr. And since I feel like answering questions today about myself, here they are:

• 1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
• - Of course they do :))
• 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
• - nope.
• 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
• - I don't usually remember "when", all I only remember is how I felt, so that means I can't really answer this. xD
• 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
• - nope. It's awkward. :P
• 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
• - nope.
• 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
• - yes.
• 7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
• - A white sleeveless shirt and shorts. With underwear too. (duh)
• 8. How often do you listen to music?
• - Everyday and every moment I'm alive. :P
• 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
• - I wear jeans.
• 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
• - Yes, it already did. :")
• 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
• - social.
• 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
• - My father :))
• 13. What about ‘R’?
• - nope.
• 14. Can you drive a stick shift?
• - nope.
• 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
• - it depends. But most of the time? NO.
• 16. Are you going out of town soon?
• - nope.
• 17. When was the last time you cried?
• - I forgot.
• 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
• - Yes.
• 19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
• - Nope.
• 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
• - My father :)
• 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
• - Nothing much.
• 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
• - Of course.
• 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
• - I'm not in to dating.
• 24. What are you sitting on right now?
• - A chair.
• 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
• - Nope.
• 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
• - Yes.
• 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
• - My sister.
• 28. Do you get a lot of colds?
• - Nope.
• 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
• - It's from a mall. LOL
• 30. Does anyone hate you?
• - Maybe.
• 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
• - Nope!
• 32. Do you like watching scary movies?
• - Nope.
• 33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
• - Nope. It would freakin' hurt.
• 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
• - I can't think of any year that has been entirely bad. Although one of the worst would be 2010, but still I don't want to delete it anyway.
• 35. Did you have a dream last night?
• - Of course.
• 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
• - I forgot :(
• 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
• - Nope! I'd still be studying, or working my dream job already.
• 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
• - Yes.
• 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
• - Yes. I know, creepy right? HAHA.
• 40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
• - Yes.
• 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
• - Nope.
• 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
• - Nope.
• 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
• - Yes.
• 44. What’s the best part about school?
• - The competition, and the friends I'm with. :))
• 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
• - Of course I do. I have tons of them.
• 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
• - Nope.
• 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
• - Yes.
• 48. Were you single over the last summer?
• - Of course. I've never been in a relationship. :P
• 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
• - Yes. (What a coincidence. I thought and felt recently like my life was really something like the last two years.)
• 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
• - I don't know, update my blog some more?
• 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
• - Nope.
• 52. Are you nice to everyone?
• - Maybe. I don't remember being bad to anyone.
• 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
• - Yes!
• 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
• - I don't know for sure yet.
• 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
• - Nope.
• 56. Do you think you like someone?
• - Yes.
• 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
• - Nope.
• 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
• - Both!
• 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
• - Yes.
• 60. Do you hate anyone?
• - Not really.
• 61. How’s your heart?
• - Doing fine.
• 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
• - Yes.
• 63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
• - I've cried over my brother.
• 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
• - I don't know, and I don't really care. Or do I?
• 65. Are your toenails painted pink?
• - Nope.
• 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
• - Nope.
• 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
• - It depends. HAHA.
• 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
• - Nope, but my zipper did. :P That was back when I was in Grade 2.
• 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
• - My uncle who's younger than me.
• 70. How do you look right now?
• - Unruly hair, wearing clothes that make me feel comfortable .. etc
• 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
• - Yes.
• 72. Can you commit to one person?
• - Of course I can, at the right time.
• 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
• - No, not everything. What's private stays private.
• 74. Have you ever felt replaced?
• - Yes.
• 75. Did you wake up cranky?
• - Sometimes.
• 76. Are you a jealous person?
• - Nope.
• 77. Are relationships ever worth it?
• - It depends. Sometimes they are, sometimes they're not.
• 78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
• - Nope.
• 79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
• - Yes.
• 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
• - Wake up. HAHA
• 81. Last person you cried in front of?
• - I forgot.
• 82. Is there someone you will never forget?
• - Yes. That would be my family and those that I have been close with.
• 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
• - Yes.
• 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
• - Talking :P
• 85. Are you over your past?
• - I don't know.
• 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
• - I don't have best friends of the opposite sex, really. But I do have close friends of the opposite sex, and I did have feelings for one.
• 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
• - Nope. Not everything.
• 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
• - Yes.
• 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
• - I guess so?
• 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
• - Nope.
• 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
• - Nope. Not expecting anything. LOL
• 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
• - Yes.
• 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
• - Nope!
• 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
• - Nope.
• 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
• - Nope. HAHA
• 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
• - Nope. LOL
• 97. Who do you have texts from?
• - My uncle who's younger than me and a close guy friend of mine, then also my cousin and my close gal friend. :))
• 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
• - "Aah, okay"
• 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
• - I kissed my parents.
• 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
• - No one else but me.
• 101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
• - Nope.
• 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
• - Literally? Yes. :P If you mean something else, well, that would be a yes too. xD

Till here :*